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Hi! We're Lance and Rebekah Gibson. We are newlyweds happily settled in the Lonestar state. We love lots of things including drive-in movies, game nights, anything involving the lake, and our Lord and Savior.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

"She Is Clothed With Strength & Dignity"



Well, it has been a slightly discouraging past couple of days. Discouraging and challenging. The things I've been dealing with have left me feeling a little down and definitely disappointed, but the cool thing is that right along with them comes the challenging, yet encouraging words of Scripture. I just feel like the Lord is taking me though the time of true transformation as I enter this new stage in life and I am SO excited to see what He does… Even though I know it's going to be hard.


Anyways, even though this is sooo shallow and kind of embarrassing, I'm going to write about it because it helps me think. I'll be honest... I've been so, so, so discouraged about my weight and the way my body looks lately. It shouldn't, but it has seriously gotten me down.And let me just say, the Lord is quick to teach me a lesson in humility. Just when I started to feel a little better about how I look (a.k.a put TOO MUCH value in it), He used a conversation I had with Lance a few nights ago to remind me that I still focus too much on what true beauty is NOT. It's funny how one little comment can eat at you and wear you down until you really notice your flaws. Sanctification, sanctification, sanctification. Anyways, over the past two days I've just felt so unattractive and insecure, which is exactly where Satan wants me. He knows my weak spots and he knows how to push on them and cause pain.


And it's crazy because, as I'm dealing with those emotions, I'm looking at myself going, "You know better. You know better than to find your worth or define your beauty in the way you look." And I do know this! I wrote about it not too long ago. I'm so thankful because these are the words that are constantly on my mind as I fight this battle:

"Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of fine clothes. instead it should be that of your inner self, the UNFADING BEAUTY of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of GREAT WORTH in God's sight."
1 Peter 3:3-4


"Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised"
Proverbs 31:30


1 Peter 3:3-4 tells me where the Lord defines my beauty. He is VERY clear that my beauty has nothing to do with the physical. That physical beauty, that we focus so much on? It's not here to stay. Proverbs 31 is very clear about that in verse 30. But unfading beauty? That can be yours. Your spirit is where it is found.  And it's hard when you know that everyone, and I mean everyone, bases beauty off of something so far removed from the Word. Every girl desires to be thought of as beautiful… but truthfully, even deeper than that, we desire to be captivating. Captivating is the kind of beauty that encompasses the soul, the spirit, and the mind. Beauty of the physical sense does not run that deep. Proverbs 31 also talks about a woman who, when she speaks, overflows with wisdom. It says her children rise up and call her blessed and that her husband praises her as well. She is defined as a "wife of noble character". That woman is captivating. As Matt Chandler says it in one of my favorite sermons, that woman has cultivated her mind and her soul. She is known for her diligence, wisdom, kindness,her love for the Lord, and her concern for others. Not herself!  That is woman who captivates. 

Isn't that what you truly desire? Don't you want to be of such inner beauty that people can't take their eyes off of you, and not because of YOU, but because of the beauty GOD has given you in your spirit?? Stasi Eldredge says it so well in the book she co-wrote with her husband. It's an incredible book about the soul of a woman. She says that this woman is so captivating because 

"Her soul is Alive. And we are drawn to her."

 I so desire that. I know I already said this, but I truly feel like I'm coming into a time of transformation. Everything in my life is about to change and I know the Lord is taking me and breaking me down to prepare me. I.can't.wait. 

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

L-O-V-E

Happy Valentine's everyone! We celebrated an evening early by cooking ourselves dinner last night. Lasagna and breadsticks were on the menu for us, and I for one had a blast cooking with the Valentine I get to keep forever and ever. We definitely learned a lot... Like that cooking for two people does NOT require a full recipe unless you plan on eating only whatever you're making for the next month and a half. :)


After dinner we got to snuggle up and watch a movie... A movie that was horribly depressing, haha.  Because that's how we celebrate the mushiest day of the year. Give me a story of child abuse and depression over romance any day of the week. :) I'm being slightly dramatic. It wasn't bad, just so sad.


 All that being said, I am so thankful for my valentine and the times we share together, and for the fact that next year we will celebrate as husby and wifey... which = PARTY.


Sunday, February 5, 2012



5 Things That Make Me Smile Lately

1. My second grade classes at church. Love, love, LOVE them!

2. Random days of nice, warm weather. Makes me feel like summer really IS coming. And with summer comes...

3. ... OUR WEDDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I love wedding planning and talking about being married and the fact that all of this will happen in about 4 months! 

4. Flowers. Even pictures of flowers. I just love them. 

5. My fiance (I don't EVER get tired of saying that) and those special, little moments we share... busting out in laughter at something that makes sense only to the two of us, taking care of one another, honest conversations... I think back on all of it with a smile!  

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Beauty

So, I kind of got called out on something last night. 


As my fiance and I were driving to meet our group of friends for the usual post-church dinner, he turned to me and said something along the lines of, "We won't have any time to talk about this later tonight , but I need to say something." Naturally, I was pretty curious about what was coming next... Didn't really sound like he was going to say anything good, but then again I knew he wouldn't say anything upsetting knowing that we wouldn't get to talk about it until the next day. So I was pretty intrigued. After answering a brief phone call, he turned to me and said, "About what Mycah said earlier (Mycah is a friend of mine and we had been talking about our appearances. I had said that I didn't feel as pretty without make-up compared to wearing it), I think there is something serious going on there. Think about it and we'll talk tomorrow." 


We didn't get a chance to talk about it today, but I think I've come to some conclusions. 


Self-confidence has always been something I have struggled with. From my physical appearance to my personality, confidence is just not something I've had. I've been self-conscious of my weight, my "shy" personality, my looks in general, my ability to open up to people, etc. I know it's unhealthy, and I know it's shallow and silly. But thinking about it for the past day has also opened my eyes to another negative - it's not honoring to the Lord. This is something I was kind of aware of before, but I never really took that awareness and used it to change my own outlook. 


This insecurity causes me to focus on petty, fleshly things rather than focusing my time on making an eternal difference in someone's life. That alone is a problem! This has also made me realize that sometimes I rely more on what I can do with my own abilities rather than relying on what the Lord can do through me... A.k.a. Problem #2. It causes me to hold back where God has commanded me to go boldly. Wrong, wrong, wrong.  These are just a couple of the issues I find in my concern with my appearance.


So, I'm going to change. Easier said than done, no doubt, but I don't want to think like that anymore. I want to view beauty the way God does. I want to value it as what HE says it is, not the world. 


That's the kind of beautiful I want to be... Captivating because of who I am in Him. Nothing else.