Stupid. Painful. Unimportant. Body. Image. Issues.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Lately, I'm just happy.
I'm blessed with a job that allows me to play around with kids and NERF guns AND I get to alphabetize things to no end, which is one of my absolute favorite things to do. Not even joking. I get to eat lunch with my favorite boy almost every day, because favorite boy works at same place as me... However, he does not get to play with kids, NERF guns, OR the alphabet/filing cabinets. Sad day for him, right?
I'm still working out regularly, which has been really good. Not only do I just feel better in general, I've also lost some inches, FINALLY. This battle with my body has been one that has always been going on. I've never been satisfied with the way I look. That has changed within the last year though. I've worked out fairly consistently for the past year which has resulted in weight loss and just a general "feel good" feeling.
Speaking of said boy, he definitely has a lot to do with this happiness I've been feeling. Big surprise, right? Time with him has just been good lately. We've had some pretty honest conversations lately. I feel like I've learned a lot about him as well as a lot about our relationship. I am so thankful to the Lord for blessing me with a man who has integrity. I am so, so thankful for the way we can talk about literally everything, just openly and honestly. I LOVE talking to him, serious and otherwise. I love video game date nights with him. I love the relationship we have. He is my best friend. When I have bad/sad days, all I want to do is talk to him. When things are fantastic, all I want is for him to feel the same happiness I do. I want to share everything with him. I want to serve the Lord beside him, I want to love him as long as I draw breath... I want these things selfishly. I pray, I pray, I pray that while we are together we seek the Lord's will passionately every day, together and as individuals. I pray that His plan for us includes each other, but I know that it could not. Selfishly, I pray that it does. That being said, I also know that the love of Christ will fill my life with joy and happiness, even if it is the only kind of love I ever experience. I look forward to that kind of life just as much as one that I would share with favorite boy.
By the way, I have absolutely no idea whether or not boy reads this. Living on the edge, huh? :)
Speaking of Christ and His love for me, can I just say once again that the Lord is so stinking good? Without Him, all of these things I mentioned above would be lacking severely. Because of Jesus in my life and the relationship I have with Him, my life is so much more vibrant. Thank you, Lord for your love. Thank You for your blood. Thank You for your mercy and grace. I love You.
Like I said,
lately, I'm just happy. :)
Thursday, June 16, 2011
The Lord has done quite a number on me this week. Praise Him for being a God of new beginnings, praise Him for being a God of infinite works, and praise Him for making known to us a love that we so do not deserve. Praise Him for new creations.
"Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.
And that is what some of you were.
But you were WASHED, you were SANCTIFIED, you were JUSTIFIED in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, and by the Spirit of our God."
~ 1 Corinthians 6:9-11
"Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death."